Just Touching Base…

Yesterday’s list: Take 5 bar, 5 taquitos with cheese and sour cream, 4 chocolate peanut butter chip cookies, Mac and cheese with tuna and soup.

It’s been a nice weekend.  Had some family time and I’ve been trying to eat better and get a little bit of exercise.  The show opened this last Friday and it was very well received.

This week I’m just trying to stay to good habits, and get exercise. Hopefully, I’ll start to see some progress.

Just keeping it short today.

Today’s quote:

“Sex is good, but not as good as fresh, sweet corn.”  ~Garrison Keillor

Just a note….

Yesterday’s list: One 4 oz. pkg. thin pretzels, 4 chicken and cheese flour taquitos with cheese and sour cream, a Kit-Kat, a Reese’s sticks, Arby’s crispy chicken sandwich, one jalapeño popper, on stuffed baked potato bite, and a 32oz. Diet Pepsi.

Well, yesterday’s post was gloomy!  Maybe it was the weather.  I feel much better today.  Tonight is final dress before we have our first show at SLCC.  This has been a fun show, but I’ll be glad to have it open and be done with rehearsals.

Today’s post will be short.  It’s been a busy day at work and I just don’t have the time to write a lot.  Got a very nice comment on yesterday’s post.  Thanks to Anonymous!

Today’s quote:

“Do vegetarians eat animal crackers?”  ~Author Unknown

So enough about me…What did YOU think of me?

Yesterday’s list:  One bowl of honey nut Cheerios, one Yoplait low fat strawberry yogurt, four slices Little Caesar’s pepperoni pizza, three pieces LC Italian cheese bread, Wendy’s Chicken Club sandwich, large fries, large diet coke, and 1/2 med. frosty.

It’s been a frantic couple of weeks.  My daughter graduated high school, so I am now officially old.I am in the final days of rehearsal for a new show with Hunt Mysteries, and I feel like my life is unraveling very quickly.  I know that things are happening the way they are because I have buried my head in the sand. I finally got some decent walking shoes, but have not yet made any time to use them.  I can make all the excuses I want, but I just haven’t put this as a priority in my life that makes it important enough to do things about it.  I can make as many excuses as I want, but it just all sounds so phony to me. I haven’t posted on this blog because I haven’t wanted to post the same stuff over and over again.  Even I get tired of hearing the same crap from me.  I go to rehearsals and I see these wonderful people whom I love being around, and think why is it that I have let myself get to the point that I am at.  They are all active, vibrant people, and I’m this stodgy old fogey.  It amazes me that they even tolerate me.  Don’t get me wrong.  I have a great time with them all.  I relish the fun that we have doing our little theater shtick.  But at the same time, I guess there’s a part of me that can’t believe that people really enjoy the time they spend with me.  This, I guess, is the great contradiction of the performer: Unending ego to get up and perform, but the crushing insecurity that it’s all put on, and if anyone knew the real you, they’d never speak to you again.

That fear has been a real struggle to keeping this blog real.  I try to be as honest and open as I can on here.  My wife has learned to deal with my manic moods: the wild egotism and the desperate insecurity.  She know that after every performance she will have to endure the 20 minutes of me seeking her confirmation that I really was good.  During a performance, I act very calm and suave and collected.  Once it is over, though, and I’m away from my fellow actors and the audience, I need the confirmation that what I did was ok.  I hate that part of me, but it’s what it is.  And I guess that’s part of what this is: a cry for acceptance, a plea for approval.  I have to say, as I have before, I find it amazing that anyone will read this crap.  Why am I so interesting?  But I’m glad you do, and I love your comments, favorable or not.  It’s what keeps me real and honest.

Today’s quote:

“Vegetables are a must on a diet.  I suggest carrot cake, zucchini bread, and pumpkin pie.”  ~Jim Davis

All This And Friendly Encouragement? SWEET!!

Yesterday’s list: Carl’s Jr. Six-dollar portobello mushroom burger, small fries, small diet coke, one Reese’s stick, 4 bites Panda Express orange chicken, one slice roast beef, three slices chicken cordon bleu, carrots, rice, roasted potatoes, green salad and peach cobbler with whipped cream.

An impressive list after an extended absence.  First, I need to say that my lack of posting was due primarily this time to work pressures.  Things have been crazy at work, and we have all been very busy.  Second, I have been humbled by the comments that I have received over the last few days.  They have almost all been “anonymous” posts, but I truly thank you for your words of encouragement and faith.  I wish I knew who it was so that I could thank them personally.  The words of encouragement are always kindly felt.  Also thanks to whoever tried to stand up for me.  I appreciate it, but I’m rather thick-skinned (soon to be thinner!) and any comments given me with sincere concern and a wish to help are welcome.  I know that all comments are meant to help me, and they do.

I finally got my blood tests back.  The good news is that my PSA, blood glucose, liver function, etc. are all excellent.  My cholesterol is borderline, but not high enough to need medication, and B12 needs to be retested, as it was elevated, but they want to do a second test on it.  So by the blood work, I am doing ok.  I don’t want to do ok.  I want to be fantastic.  For most of my life I have settled for me being ok.  I have settled for what was easy and the most simple to achieve.  I’m no longer satisfied with that.  My kids deserve better, and my wife certainly deserves better.  She has put up with me at my lowest for 20 years.  How I ever got such a wonderful woman to agree to marry me, I will never know.  And why she has stayed by me is a wonder, too.  But she has and I want to be the kind of husband she deserves.  So, thanks for the comments and all your support.

Today’s quote:

“It would be nice if the Food and Drug Administration stopped issuing warnings about toxic substances and just gave me the names of one or two things still safe to eat.”  ~Robert Fuoss